Seeing as how absolutely no one follows my blog, my twitter, my xanga... etc. I do not begin to understand why I even keep these accounts active except for the people that I follow. However, that is not the point/topic of my post.
It is December and I have not posted in a few months. I feel the urge to write, even if it is not actual writing and something that no one will see.
As my previous post stated, I graduated June 12th 2010. For some reason I keep thinking that I graduated in July when in fact I did not. I took my boards on July 7th and failed. The day before my best friend's wedding (yes, I know... "ha ha its a movie [/sarcasm]") I was informed of my failure. I spent the majority of the rehearsal attempting to keep my tears safely hidden inside as well as appear to show my great happiness that my BF was now marrying her new eternal BFF and soul mate. ;-) I am and was truly happy for her, but was sidetracked by my depressing news. I retook my boards on August 28th. Now bare in mind that I did not study. I felt like I remembered most of what I learned in the Hurst review and so I felt WAY over confident. Not to mention the fact that my boss interpreted the term "graduation" as "you can now work 40 + hours." From July 7th to August 28th, I again was consumed with work, fell ill a couple of times, and was exhausted almost 24/7. Still, even in my down time my study was minimal. Yes, I studied 50X harder than before but that is not hard considering I didn't study at all the first time. So, 2 days after my 2nd attempt I was again informed of my failure. BOTH times that I failed, I barely failed. This to me is worse than completely bombing it. Had I bombed it, I might have been more motivated to study. Barely failing told me that I had the knowledge, I just needed the smallest amount more. Attempt 3 I was successful. I actually studied for attempt 3. Mind you, I did not study hard, but I did take a few practice tests and read through a few review books. I passed by a landslide. I am kicking myself because if I would've just applied myself from the start I would've saved myself a LOT of money and heartache. I am now a registered nurse and I am currently looking for a job. Absolutely NO ONE right now is hiring. It is very difficult to find a nursing job.
We are living in my in-laws house that they are trying to sell. Its nice because I don't have to pay rent but its a huge step of faith because we could be homeless at any moment.
My husband and I have decided to leave the fate of pregnancy in the Lord's hands. I will be 24 this coming year and due to certain health concerns I've been informed that when I hit 35, if I have not had my first child by that age, then I will have to adopt or face possible adverse effects. Seeing as how we want a mid-sized/larger family, I feel we are losing time. I am not 100% sure I am ready for children right now, this is yet another reason that I am leaving this to God. We've decided to go "natural" and I have stopped taking birth control. We are not actively "trying" for children, but simply praying that everything will happen in His perfect timing. We know that as long as we have faith He will provide for us and our offspring.
I may not have a job now but I know that He will provide me with one eventually.
Christmas was wonderful. I had a great time with family and received many wonderful gifts from my in-laws.
It's time for bed however. I am exhausted from work today at the dreadful BK dungeon.
*adieu*
